I don't know what to do with this place.  I come here often wondering if I want to keep it here, for you (if there's even anyone still watching) and/or for me.  Even though it started for a different purpose and was suppose to have a bit of a different direction, I loved what it had become.  I enjoyed sharing my thoughts with you, writing what I wanted to write about but lately I just don't know what to say.

I think I want to start clean, right from the beginning.  I'm going to commit to time and effort and get this place to what I want.....

I'm here, I'm trying to get my act in gear with updating this place but I just don't seem to remember. 

Today I got an amazing email, from an amazing friend.  I won't mention names but I know she reads this and I know she'll know I'm talking about her.  It was such a nice email that right away I lifted my shoulders and thought, I can do this.  I know I can loose this stupid weight and I can look and feel great!

So thank you!

Since I last wrote a post, I have written out my goals, what I want to acheive over the next little while, with my major goal and then also my little goals.  I know I'll never achive the weight loss if I'm constitaly worried about loosing 50lbs so I'm breaking it down.  Making smaller steps of 10lb and 15lbs so that I can be way more excited when I reach those milestones!
Plus I'm also rewarding myself at those milestones.  I wrote down a few things that I'd like to purchase for myself but I won't until I loose that weight.  If I don't reach the goal I don't get the reward.  Sounds fair to me.  I also wrote out a bit of a calander on when I wanted to loose the weight and I've started my food journal.  I'm pretty bad at writing it in though and then I find myself forgetting what I ate and having to try and guess from the previous days.  Seems sort of a waste so I'm really going to focus on that this week.

I have also been continuing my run/walk.  I've been working on the C25K program and I really enjoy it.  I'm taking my time and not really following the 8 week program.  I try to repeat the day if I feel I could do better and most of the time I only have to repeat it one day if at all.  Plus I've also been following this running schedule - called the speed ladder, which I also really love. 

I love the feeling when I stop running, have my shower and sit down in front of the TV (that is before the starvation sinks in).  I feel energized, healthy, and just pain good.  Then about half an hour later I'm starving.  I havne't figured out what to do to avoid this hungry feeling although lastnight I grabbed a spoonful of peanut butter and it seemed to really help.  I'm not entirly sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing but it was better than a bag of chips right?

So that's it, I haven't weighed myself and to be honest I don't even own a scale yet so it's really hard for me to even keep track of weight loss.


So that's it for me right now!  I'll be back and hopefully have some pictures to post soon too! :)

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I'm sorry I haven't been around much for...ever.  I do apologize for that.  I'm not going to say much else other than I'm sorry!  I'll try harder! :)

So, I'm back at it. I'm back to trying to loose the "baby weight" I gained after I had my daughter 4.5 years ago, which is what made me start this blog in the first place.  I think right now I'm pretty much at the heaviest I've been and trust me I'm not happy about it.  I'm trying...all the time, I'm trying, I feel like all I'm ever doing is trying to loose weight and NOTHING seems to work.

In the past 6-8 months, I've tried Slimpods (I have a post coming up about this soon), I'm running again, I've been writing a food journal, I'm eating better, I'm trying to stop my night time snacking, but NOTHING helps!  I'm at a loss and really starting to feel down about it.  I want more than anything to be healthy for my family, to feel good about myself, to have nice clothes to fit into, feel great while shopping rather than upset, depressed and uninterested. 

I NEED to figure this out.

So from now on I'm leaning on you my readers to help me with this.  I'm going to be  posting pictures, weigh in's, my running schedule, my eating habits, etc.  I need to be held responsible for all of this.  If you have any suggestions I would love to hear it.  I'm at a loss!